i’m an eighteen year old university student living in the united states. obese capital of the world.

i think i’ll be anon on here forever..

i “suffer” from depression, generalized anxiety with extreme ocd, and some psychiatrists have diagnosed me as bi-polar. i hide my cutting and physical abuse from doctors as much as possible.

i have never stuck to an eating disorder, but if it comes down to it, i will do what i have to do.

why i want need to lose weight

• i no longer wish to be the fat friend. when a guy becomes interested in a girl friend of mine, i’m the one they use to suck up to. i’m not what they think i am.
• so i can understand my boyfriends love for me and believe him when he tells me i’m beautiful.
• so on my wedding day, the groom can easily carry me out.
• so i could feel comfortable having sex and getting tattoos and being in public.
• so i could look at myself, long and hard in the mirror without crying.